Six Months Later

Six Months Later

July 27, 2018

I wanted to update everyone on how we are doing.  This last 6 months have been a journey that we did not choose or want, but then again, neither were any of Katy's struggles chosen or wanted.  But to be honest, I don't know any other way to be, but to power through the challenges that life has thrown at me.   We miss Katy every single day.  Our hearts ache with the absence of her in our lives.  We cry, we laugh, and we remember every day.  Katy is often in our conversations (meaning we talk about her a lot), and sometimes in our dreams.  She will always be a part of us, and our love for her will be forever be in our hearts.  But life continues, and we must continue on the path our futures hold for us.  Katy believed that she would never truly be gone, and that her atoms will exist until the end of the universe.  That belief brings me solace, as I know she is with me in spirit.  I think of her as my guiding star.

Emily is doing well.  We have kept her very busy this summer.  And she is going to be very busy in the new school year.  Her outlook on life has become more positive and I know she wants to live her life in a way that would make Katy proud.  She decided that being angry is not honoring the memory of her sister.  I love her new attitude and see evidence of it on a regular basis.  Both my daughters have gone through tough experiences and both have made me proud.  

I am still in the process of finding a meaning to my days.  Emily keeps me busy, but I want something else to focus on.  But I am giving myself time to grieve and sort all this out.  I have ideas, and if any come to fruition, I will let you know.  Jim is talking about retirement in the next few years and looking forward to that transition in life.

I had the privilege of reading a speech a fellow PH Mom gave at the International PH Conference in Orlando in June 2018.  I was so impressed I wanted to share it on Katy's blog.  This speech can apply to all challenges we have in life.  At the end, she talks of a Mom who, 6 years ago, at her first PH Conference, told her "she could do this".  That mother was me.  I am happy to report that Cheryl and her family are facing the challenges given to them with grace and wisdom.  It is not easy, but we do the best we can do and keep it real.  I am posting it separately as it is long.  You can choose to read it if you like.  I believe it is well worth your time.

We thank every single one of you for the support, flowers, cards and the outpouring of love we continue to receive.  

All our love,

Christina